Heartless

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Experiencing loss is interesting – and not in the good sense.

 

What’s interesting about it is you can lose some of the most important things and/or people in your life, and it can cause you to think, “Ok, it can’t get worse than this.”

 

NEVER THINK THAT. You can ALWAYS lose more.

 

And sometimes that loss has nothing to do with death – it’s just that people change, they grow apart, or they just stop caring.

 

And here’s the thing: No matter how much YOU have changed, or grown apart – the actual end or cutting off of that thing or person is still incredibly painful.

 

And shutting down won’t make the pain go away; trying not to feel the pain will only prolong the healing because the truth is, no one will be there for you forever.

 

And that’s life.

 

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12/4/15 7:48pm CST

Truth Hurts

Truth may march o’er cracked stone floors
through bloodied hearts arrayed,

And Pain might prevail whilst cities lie
In dust and agony weighed,

Yet Reality trudges onward
through the graying scenes of life,

Gripping in one whitened fist
Truth’s heartless, edged knife.

–KW McCabe 2015

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Lost

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I haven’t posted in awhile, partly because I’ve been overwhelmed and partly because I haven’t had any words.

 

You never realize how much a person can fill up the space and cracks of time in your life until they’re gone and those spaces loom empty.

 

The good times and the bad ache sharper because you know you will never get the chance to experience anything with them ever again.

 

What hurts most is the end of possibilities – the end of the chance to see what more that person could have done or whom they might have become.

 

It hurts to discover that while we often told one another that life was short – we never took it to heart.

 

And now it’s too late.

 

In Response To Recent Events

The McCabe family severed ties with MPCS and David Singleton on October 20, 2015.

The family is focused and dedicated to continuing the search for Henry McCabe in conjunction with the Mounds View Police Dept., and thanks the community for their continuing support and dedication to the search for Henry McCabe.

Thirty days

Thirty days have passed since my husband disappeared.

Each night I pray he is alive somewhere. My heart doesn’t feel that he has passed on, but the heart is a treacherous place.

Meanwhile, I search for the right words to tell my oldest child. My youngest simply points at his picture and repeats his name like a summoning.

My heart breaks for my two daughters as I wonder if they will grow up in a cold, harsh world without the man that cradled them in his arms.

And I?

I continue to pray for a resolution, an end to the question where is he?

God knows.

God doesn’t sleep.

This can’t last forever.

When Things Are Unclear

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It’s been 21 days since the night my husband went missing.

 

The circumstances surrounding that night are confusing, to say the least.

 

There are times when the whole thing seems unreal. The irony of the situation cuts deep when others comment that his disappearance sounds like a book or a movie, because though I’m a writer – this is my life.

 

I had to halt editing Dragon Kin as I have been consumed with talking to investigators, and I’m uncertain when I’ll be able to restart.

 

I hope this ends soon, that my husband is found, and that my daughters’ tiny, protected worlds are made right again.

Holding Hope

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I haven’t updated in awhile. It’s been difficult to do so with the current circumstances of my life.

 

My husband went missing 9/7/15, and no one has seen or heard from him since.

 

I’m hoping that he will be found soon, and that this nightmare will end.

 

Because of this, it has been difficult for me to focus on writing or editing or anything that doesn’t have something to do with finding him.

 

Please, keep me in your prayers.

Dragon Kin Blurb!

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So, after much hair pulling and helpless, frustrated tears, I’ve finished the blurb and book description for Dragon Kin. Check it out below!

 

 

*A land ruled by the Dragon Queen
*An exiled dragon prince 
*A girl of mysterious origins 
*Division will destroy them

 

Cecily Burns’ world is ruled by Queen Saranyu, the dragon queen, who devoured her father’s leg. Even though Cecily knows the dark side of dragonkind, she befriends Derek, Queen’s Saranyu’s son. Though such bonds between humans and dragons are forbidden, the two pursue their destiny as true mates.

 

Their rebellion has a price — an ultimatum from Queen Saranyu to her son: Cecily and banishment, or the throne.

 

Derek defies his mother and chooses Cecily.

 

The shock of Derek’s mutiny drives Queen Saranyu into a life-threatening coma that leaves her kingdom in turmoil. In the queen’s absence, humans disappear mysteriously as Sahak, her older son, masterminds a treasonous plot for the throne.

 

Cecily suffers horrific visions, and not even Derek’s love can protect her from a transformation that might force dragonkind to retaliate. Cecily must discover what her change means for her and Derek before Sahak steals the throne and eradicates humanity.